Greetings again, old friend

It's rainy outside and I'm listening to Billie Holiday. Perfect recipe for some self-reflection and compassion towards myself.

I have been away from the writing/blogging scene for months. September through Jan 1 seem to be the hibernation months for me. I have also been in a leadership program which finishes up with graduation tomorrow.

One of the things that I want to re-dedicate myself to is to myself, to Love Guerrillas and this blog.

I have realized that when I am struggling, it is easier for me to hide away and not talk about it, let alone not on social media. Part of my Body Positive identity has been about being strong, standing up and being a positive leader. Up until recently, I thought that I only could offer something to the greater community if it came from a sense of being happy and having pride in my imperfect body. When sh*t hits the fan, my love for my body comes under attack from a self that is too preoccupied with everything else than checking in to say, "hi body, how are you? you are lovely as always!".

I have always known there was a correlation between times that were hard and then tendency to take it out on my body or think that if that would just improve, "wouldn't things just get better if....?". But the poor body image is a symptom of the overall stress I have been feeling. It isn't a reason for all the stress. It never is. At least for me. I would like to relate to my negative body image/critical voice by saying,

Me: "Oh, here you are old friend. I haven't seen you in awhile. 

Guess it's time for me to take extra good care of myself, huh? 

Now let me send you on your way". 

I accept that times have been hard; impacted by stress and grief and the emotional land mines caused by the passing and impending holidays. I accept that when I am stressed, I tend to not move my body and veg out watching television series. I also accept that I can move again and I respect myself to listen and know when I need both.

I accept that I have a body that I love and adore, that I forget about sometimes. I accept and recognize that I have a perfectionistic tendency to only feel a part of my valued Body Positive community when I feel strong and well. I also accept that this is only my FEAR not reality.

The reality?

I accept myself [and you!] for exactly who I am in this moment and always. I LOVE my body in this moment and all the time. I may forget to give you the attention you need, I may also bash you or become embarrassed of you at times, but I remember that I deeply care for you and love you all the same.

I am not perfect. My relationship with my body recently has been woven and tangled around current loss and guilt about not pursuing my dreams, about stress and grief and missing my mom.

All of this is temporary. 

Both the fear and loss are temporary. 

All of this can come and go in any of our lives. The greatest gift that I have been given, is that The Body Positive helped me create a base and foundation of love so I never get "so-low" that I completely forget who I am. 

An apology to my "self" seems fitting right now:

"Don't Cry Baby"

Ella Fitzgerald

Don't cry, don't cry baby

Don't cry baby

dry your eyes, and let's be sweethearts again

And oh, cuz you know

You know I didn't mean

To ever treat you so mean

C'mon, c'mon sweetheart

And let's try it over again

In renewed self-love and compassion for my body, 

Yours truly. 

On the path to my dreams

Recently, a young woman (name has been changed for confidentiality) contacted me to find out about how to weave body image and self-love into a career. It made me feel inspired to describe my journey to my current career as well as envision for myself where my career is going. I have so much that I would love to do in my life. Sometimes it is important to think about where we have been so we can start to dream about where we are going. 


Hi Olivia,

So nice to get your email! I would love to tell you more about getting a Master's in Social Work. 

Most people I know who became social workers didn't "grow up wanting to become a social worker" its something that they stumbled upon, or came upon later on in their process because they realized at some point they wanted to do something to help people and address systems of oppression or societal injustice in some way. Social work is a hugely vast field but the main thing that binds us all together is working with people and addressing social issues. 

Body image is a HUGE passion of mine! I got my BA in Politics, Legal Studies and Music and was on my way to law school when I realized that people were cycling through the civil legal system because the underlying issues were never addressed adequately (eg. mental illness, poverty, low-income, lack of education, etc.). So I began thinking about how I could help AND I wanted The Body Positive work I had been doing in high school and college to be involved somehow. 

I ended up watching the movie Precious in theaters and went home and wrote my personal statement to apply to social work school. I thought the same as you that if someone (anyone!) could show young women that they were okay in their bodies just as they were and they could love themselves, they would avoid so much pain and suffering! 

I got into social work and pursued a clinical track which prepares you to be a therapist and learn about mental health. Even within that concentration there is a lot of variety, you could work with children, adults, older adults, families, couples, students (any age), etc. I did an internship with youth and families my first year of social work school and the next year with adults because I thought it would give me a balance and I could decide from there which population I liked more.

I decided that I loved working with adults in mental health settings and working with youth and young adults in my work with The Body Positive. I never had an eating disorder so I didn't feel passionate about helping people through their eating disorders, but I did struggle with body hatred and eating problems and know I am more passionate about prevention of eating disorders. 

What I do in my job is I am a mental health practitioner who works with adults with severe and persistent mental health disorders like Schizophrenia, Bipolar and Major Depression. A lot of the people I see also have substance use disorders/addictions. What I explored in social work school was how ALL people are affected by how they see themselves and their bodies. My clients who have serious mental health challenges will come to me and talk about how they hate their body. At first it surprised me because I was also the assumption that body image issues affected people who had more resources (the idea that if people had other concerns like getting their next meal, they may not have time to care about their bodies let alone hate it). But I learned that this is a universal issue! 

While I was in social work school I really began to see self-love as a universal human right and see it within a social justice lens. A lot of what you learn as a social worker is how to effect change on different levels: the individual, organizational and societal structures. Body image affects all people and in many ways that overlap with other social justice issues including LGBT rights, gender norms, abilities vs. disabilities, diversity, class, race, etc. My thesis was developing Body Positive curriculum for social work students so they could use it with their clients.

I am in the process of developing a new part of The Body Positive which I have just started and it is called Love Guerrillas. It will be an online and social justice/activism group with activism projects that people can do in their communities and share online. It has started as a blog and you can read about it here: http://loveguerrillasmanifesto.blogspot.com 

My suggestion would be to apply to social work school! Follow your passion! 

Hope my story helps!

Jessica

Time Travels...

Hello! And welcome back to The Love Guerrillas Manifesto! I have taken a break from writing to grieve, to work on some amazing projects, to learn, to travel and to sit with what I have shared over the last 15 entries. I have discovered that a HUGE part of this work is taking time to experience self-love and cultivate it. By taking a step back, I can truly be present to it! It makes me think of how powerful being witness to something is. I sat back and not only became witness to my life, but witness to self-love actualizing in different waves over the last month.

In my day-to-day life I am a social worker working with the most amazing clients and team members! One of the things I have been busy working on is a project that promotes Recovery being possible from Mental Illness. By using dance we were able to cultivate a feeling of "Happy!" that starts the conversation about how we all are affected by mental illness and to be aware and supportive to one another. What was so special for me is how everyone in the video used their bodies to move!! This video is not only about mental illness it is about creative soul expression! Click the link below to see for yourself:

Recovery is Possible!

Working in the mental health field can be very rewarding and very difficult. It is a practice for me in holding a paradox. Over this month I had to say goodbye to someone I worked with who passed away and a different goodbye to a powerful and phenomenal supervisor who was retiring. Loss in any form allows a space for rebirth and for something else beautiful to come in the space that the loss left. I truly listened to these losses and allowed myself to grieve them. What I have learned from my own grief process is that being in the moment and allowing yourself to feel loss keeps you connected to those who you perceive as being "gone". Lighting a candle and allowing my heart to break for one, sharing laughter and hugs to the other all help me keep a golden thread from my heart to theirs. 

This practice and this time is connected to my experience with my body completely and totally. Because it is my body that is the vessel that keeps all of these memories and experiences at my fingertips! I recall in my body the feelings of love, connection, hope that emanate from my heart and surround the people that I come in contact with. 

This month also saw great love in the form a wedding between amazing friends, a new family unit with beautiful children and a profound experience dancing again with one of my closest friends- a true soul sister. Witnessing love in these ways was powerful and allowed me to truly take that love in! To let the love that I saw on their wedding day, and in the eyes of my friends with their smiling children and the connection with my friend as we danced, was a practice in letting love fall across my shoulders, dance across my chest and settle deep inside my belly where I will hold it forever. 

I have a keen awareness and deep appreciation for my partner who sees me totally and with eyes of love and admiration daily for what I may struggle with, and for all that I want to do in my life. Having someone truly see me and reflect a loving gaze is so powerful and I feel that it is so needed in my life. It is as if you are riding waves on a sea alone but know that there is a vessel behind yours, there to catch you if you need help sailing.

So it is in all of these experiences that I come to a deep gratitude for the space and time to be able to truly experience them. I started to feel guilty about not writing that somehow it would be a reflection of me somehow, but what I have learned is that in this work of self-love, action and stillness is still movement! I honor the times to be still, as I honor the times to move/act. 

So, welcome back or welcome for the first time, as witnesses to my journey- in hopes that you will share your journey with me too. 

From "Difference" to Diversity

Before I knew about The Body Positive, I had an experience of my body that was wrapped up in “difference”. I had a different skin color than my peers, different shape and size than my friends, different genetic heritage that dictated the size of my lips, the color and shine of my hair and the size of my legs and feet. What I didn’t know then which I know now, which is that the beautiful differences were diversity, not fat. 

All the differences I noticed were described to me and by others as fat because we didn’t know what else to call it. Magazines were telling us and older girls about what to wear, how to be in the world and about fat (or not wanting it), so I figured that the difference I saw had to be because of a defect in my body, shape and size and that I was probably to blame. 

As a freshman, when I first sat in the classroom where The Body Positive support group was held in my high school, I had this feeling come over me of excitement. This was where I could explore my relationship I had with my body and get new language, including LOVE for my body. This message about loving my body, insulated me from eating problems and body hatred throughout high school, college, graduate school and through the hardest times in my life. The foundation that I formed then, a powerful and dynamic relationship to my body, is one of wonder, gratitude and love. 

Being involved in The Body Positive as first a participant, then workshop facilitator and public speaker for over 12 years has been difference between me turning on myself in hard times when “difference” became known to me, and me turning my perspective and attention to wonderful diversity and loving myself and my body despite what is going on in my life. 

The love of difference is my beauty instead of “difference” as the absence of beauty. Not only do I take pride in the care and compassion I give to myself, I hold this for others in my life including friends, family and my community. My love for my body is my inherent beauty which allows me to care for myself and from this loving place see beauty and diversity everywhere I go, not difference.  

Nature's take on beauty of diversity, not difference

Love-spiration

In my work and research on the topic of self-love, body image and Size Diversity, the conversation usually gets stuck on "media literacy". By stuck I mean, it is usually where people hang their heads and say, "how could we ever change the systems in place that oppress us and make us feel horrible about ourselves"? It is where many conversations about self-love start and end. However powerful media has become, and social media- ("thin-spiration"??) talking about the images themselves doesn't help people feel better about their bodies.

If you were to show a group of women a magazine full of images of women whose bodies are contorted, photo-shopped and manipulated to sell products, it actually reinforces them rather than fights against it. This happens even when the objective may have been to look deeper into the validity of the images in order to realize they were made to sell you a product. Its like holding up a picture and saying "this makes you feel bad! Look at it and take in all the ways you will never be like this image". The focus on it alone can be re-traumatizing.

In my mental health work I have learned about working with people who have experienced trauma. The literature on the topic of working with people with trauma says that to go back and have someone describe it, look at it and relive it is actually re-traumatizing instead of restorative. What is healthier, is beginning to integrate the trauma into their experience and relating to it in a new and healthier way.

"While we cannot directly affect the images, we can drain them of their power.

We can turn away from them, look directly at one another, and find alternative images of beauty

in a female sub-culture; seek out the plays, music, films that illuminate women in three dimensions;

find the biographies of women, the women's history, the heroines that in each generation are 

submerged from view; fill in the terrible, "beautiful" blanks. 

We can lift ourselves and other women out of the myth-but only if we are willing to seek out and support and really look at the alternatives." p.277

The Beauty Myth: How Images of Beauty Are Used Against Women by Naomi Wolf

This quote from The Beauty Myth illustrates my point well. We need to drain the images of their power and begin to re-envision beauty that is inclusive and values us as humans with spirits and souls. What if what we saw in the media reflected more diverse and inclusive images of beauty? What if our conversation about "media literacy" was more about creating Love-spiration?

Call to all Love Guerrillas:  Resist. Fight. Create. Return to self-love!

Theme Songs

I LOVE music and dancing. I have music playing as much as possible throughout my day and I select genres based upon how I feel or how I would like to feel. Celebration to me is: salsa. Chill and mellow is: soul or jazz. Hope and love: Motown. There is so much more! As much as I get attracted to beats on the radio and start singing along, there is inevitably a moment when I catch myself and say, "did they just say that?"From perpetuating horrible messages about your body, to promoting sexist and racist stereotypes, popular radio is not always a safe-haven for your body. I am not anti-radio, but there are times when I need more from music that popular radio is able to provide.

Awhile back I started compiling a list of my theme songs. Songs that make me feel good! Songs that if I were in a movie and the camera was focused on me walking down a busy street or jumping around on the beach like this photo ^ this theme song would be playing in the background and would reflect a bit of who I am. I encourage everyone to do this! Once you have a list you can listen to it when you want to feel really great in your body! What a wonderful gratitude practice!


Here are some off my list:

• Lady don't tek no- Latyrx
• Golden- Jill Scott
• Gotta Be- Des'ree
• Dune Methane- Hieroglyphics
• Hate on Me- Jill Scott
• El Cantante- Hector Lavoe
• La Negra Tiene Tumbao- Celia Cruz
• Bitch- Meredith Brooks
• Yo no se mañana- Luis Enrique
• Dontchange- Musiq Soulchild

One day I want to compile every single body/self-loving song on the planet and host a Love Guerrilla party. Sounds fun right? 

What is one of your theme songs and why? 

Activism Ideas Vol. 2

A week ago or so, I posted some ideas for activism based upon 3 different levels including micro (personal), mezzo (interpersonal/organizational) and macro (global/societal). Here are some more ideas for you to get out there and spread the messages about loving yourself and your body to the world!

Micro-level:

Find your own gratitude practice

Staying in the present moment is one of life's challenges and great pleasures. At times we can all get caught up in future or past and skip over the present moment. When we stay in the moment we fine-tune our process of deep listening to the wisdom of our body and the wisdom of our soul. Your gratitude practice may start with just noticing your body as it is now! Close your eyes and scan over your body starting with your toes, up to your knees, to your hips, your chest, shoulders, down to your elbows and finger tips, back to your neck, your face and your hair. See your body through what it provides for you: the ability to move, to interact with others, to work or create, to play, to love, to stroll or to run! Follow up your scan by writing a couple sentences about what you noticed and what you are grateful for. There are many ways to practice gratitude for your body which include and are not limited to: cooking a special meal, meditating while hiking through nature, journaling, having a conversation with friends. What is your gratitude practice?

Mezzo-level:

Post-It Activism

Get a book of Post-its and write on each one (or as many as you want) positive messages that you want to spread to strangers in the spaces that you visit! Examples are:

• Love your body!
• I love your smile
• You are beautiful
• You are loved
• Riots not diets! (a personal favorite) 

Post them where ever you want! On doors, on mirrors in bathrooms, on magazine covers in a book store (bonus points to those who sneak them into to diet books and "change your body" mantra type books!), on telephone poles, on ATM's, on fruit stands, be creative! I once came across one on a telephone poll in Berkeley and it brightened my day! You never know what might make the difference to someone struggling with self-love. Put your message of self-love out there!

Macro-level:

SPEAK UP (on the Internet)

The internet is a vast landscape full of possibilities to speak your mind and speak your truth. Post comments on blogs, ask questions, go to websites of harmful products or who promote harmful messages about people's bodies and click on "contact us". Let people know about Health at Every Size. They may not already know about how messages that work to increase health for all people are much more inclusive than messages that promote healthy behaviors for people who are in privileged bodies. Speak up about how messages make you feel. Speak up for others who may be afraid to. Comment, post, write, message, speak up! You may not know what could come of it, so why not try? Spread the word that loving your body is important for all people of ALL sizes. Spread the message that everyone benefits from loving themselves!

Mixed Heritage

In my day job as a social worker, I am on the Cultural Competency Advisory Board which is made up of mental health workers, consumers (clients) and consumer advocates (people who work for community based organizations). As part of this board we come together to work on special projects in order to improve the way that our services meet the needs of diverse populations. One of the projects I am working on exploring how services could be better delivered to people with "Mixed Heritage".

Part of this project is coming up with some experiences that us 'mixed folk/biracial/multi-ethnic' people face on a daily basis:

• What are you?
• Is that your mom/sister/dad/brother?
• You don't look _____(insert ethnic group here)
• You're only 50% (or whatever percentage you are)
• That's a great mix! (When someone finds out what you are)
• ::::Squints at you really hard::: "ohhh, now I see it!"
• Do you live in _______ ? (insert a city or region that has a high population of diverse people in it)
• Why do you act white? (or another group that you do not identify with ethnically or culturally)
• Check only one box: African American, Asian, Latino, White/Caucasian, Native American, OTHER

Being who I am has greatly influenced how I feel about my body and even more so because I have had to come in contact with the above statements many many many times in my life which makes me think about how I appear to others. This is not just for mixed folks. Social location affects all humans. Let me explain:

The way that I look at the world is based upon my personal and individual social location.  Which means that different aspects of our personality, identity and position in society afford us a unique take on the world and affects how we see each other and ourselves.  

My social location: cisgender female, 1st Generation Filipina, 2nd Generation Puerto Rican, heterosexual, raised in the SF Bay Area. 

Social location can also include: socioeconomic status, educational background, language/dialect spoken, political affiliation, religious affiliation, sexuality and more!

My experience as a "mixed heritage" person is not independent of how I feel to be a Filipina-Puerto Rican woman, or Filipina-Puerto Rican woman social worker!

Ultimately our identity and social location is a HUGE influence in how we view our bodies and ourselves. As I think about all the negativity that one can experience being a "mixed heritage" person (like confronting the above statements daily), I think about also all of the beauty in not being able to fit into ONE box:

• unique perspective
• the ability to navigate through different circles and cultures freely
• the choice to identify how you want to, not only how you're seen to the world
• the love for and value of DIVERSITY, not only in your family, but your partners, your community

What is your social location and how does it influence how you feel about yourself and your body?

My Parents

Myself, My sister, My Mami

My sister and I 

Me and Papi

Me and My Lola

Me and Grandma

Happy Friday!

Peace & Love!

Soul Expression

Talismans

Bounty

This is beauty!

Flare

Moving Mountains

Become a Warrior

In 2009 I lead a Be Body Positive workshop in Colorado for Latina youth. In one of the activities we brainstormed all of the messages they got on a daily basis about what their bodies were supposed to look like, from their friends, family, school community, media, doctors... There were so many that I was blown away. From messages that told them to physically change their body to even one youth telling me the message she got was to be white. I remember putting up the huge posters on the walls around us and asking them how they felt seeing them all together, and of course they felt small and ashamed and hated it. So we tore them down and ripped them to shreds! In a very real way, we were refusing to be surrounded by images and messages that harm us.

A few days ago a friend was telling me about how one day without warning she started to recall harmful things that a person in her life used to say to her. Just as she started transporting back to the time in her life when she was small and those things were said, she flipped open her visor mirror in her car and said "No. I refuse to let this harm me." She told me she decided in that moment to be a warrior.

Yes! Let's try that idea on. When we begin to recall harmful messages we have received that invalidate us or make us feel bad about ourselves, let's become warriors against them.

How you can become a warrior:

• Recognize
• The purpose of recalling messages that have been harmful to you is to begin to understand your own body story. It is to shed light on what or whom has influenced you to feel about your body/size/gender. This is where we listen to our body and our hearts and see if something sits well with us.
• Resist 
• We muster up strength and use self-love to fight against harmful messages.  We turn away from the them, we tear them down, we use activism, we cross them out, we say NO.
• Create
• We share our truth, we take on messages that make us feel good, we claim our unique beauty and perspective. We change the way we interpret all messages and follow the path again: Recognize, Resist what doesn't fit you, Create new meaning.

Messages have power when we give them power. Let's fight against the messages that harm us. Let's continue to fight for Love Guerrillas everywhere!

Muscle Memory

Moving your body is a wonderful thing. It can make you strong, wipe away stress, help you meditate through life's drudgery, connect you with nature, with friends, and a deep gratitude for the body that you have.

Many people could probably relate to me when I say that I used to move a lot more and a lot differently in the past. Before graduate school I danced up to 7 days a week at a studio that I loved. For me it was about creative expression and expressing my soul through movement. I also benefitted greatly by having more energy and flexibility. Well, life took a major turn and I contended with two very stressful and important parts of my life to date. I entered graduate school, also known as: the most stressful educational experience you will endure (that you signed up for)! And if that weren't enough, while I was in my program, my mom was diagnosed with stage four cancer and died a year later.

Nothing could ever prepare me for the blow that did to my soul.

Nothing could ever prepare me for how my grief became trapped in my body and began to leech itself in the way I saw myself and in a very tangible way, how I moved. Because, I didn't. For a long time, I couldn't bear to return to my joy of movement, much less dance (for me, the most joyful). I felt so far away from the Me that I knew. I didn't feel joy, I felt sadness, pain and anger for a new life experience I wasn't ready to have and didn't want to have. My pain turned inward and I started hating my body for betraying me and my heart for not wanting to repair itself by returning to movement.

When my mom was sick, I experimented with swimming: the gentle embrace of the water felt right to me. After she died, I started walking weekly with one of my best friends who also lost her dad. The combination of walking and talking about life in a beautiful setting, just felt right.

In the 18 months since my mom died, I have struggled with grief and with finding movement that felt good in my body. As a society we don't talk about how profound the grief process is. I never thought of myself as someone who would stop dancing, or hold the belief I couldn't do something for joy alone because my life was overcome with sadness. But its a lesson for me that eventually with time, and without fighting against loss or against my body, I can remember what its like to have joyful movement again.

I recently signed up for a new gym with my partner and when we arrived yesterday something about using the machines didn't feel right to me. I looked for a Zumba class and decided, I'm going to go for it. As I danced and sweated and sang along to the songs I watched my eyes lock in the mirror, I noticed fleeting thoughts "wow, you haven't done this in awhile!", or "This is tough!" but as those thoughts came in easily, they were swiftly replaced with, "This is fun!" and "I remember this!". I shook, I jumped, I sashayed, I smiled! I left with so much gratitude for my body that remembered how to dance! I felt pride in all my dance training that made it easy for me to get the combinations, after not taking Zumba for longer than I can remember. I felt proud of my body that remembered how to move!

What I took away was this: our bodies are incredible. Sometimes we get caught in our heads or in our emotions or pain but our bodies remember who we are. Muscle memory is a wonderful way that our bodies keep our joy tucked away for when we need it. Just because you leave something (for whatever reason) you can return. What a lesson in loving your body!

My grief is not over and I continue to miss my Mami every day. Some days are harder than others and when my heart starts to rip open again I will remember moments like this. I will remember self-love and gratitude for the chance to have joy again.

Micro, Mezzo, Macro

In social work school we talked a lot about change on the micro (self), mezzo (between persons/organizations), macro (global/societal) levels. I'm going to give you some examples of activism on the micro, mezzo and macro levels and give you some more information on why this is important.


Micro-Level Activism:

• Stop weighing yourself. 

• Your worth is not the sum of your gravitational pull to the earth. There are many ways to measure health. Focus your attention on healthy behaviors, not weight. When we move our bodies for the sole purpose of losing weight we can take a lot of joy out of the experience! Read up on Health at Every Size and learn about how weight is merely one measure that does not acurately portray a person's health in its entirety. When you stop weighing yourself, you have freedom to explore what is healthy and what does health feel like, instead of what number the scale tells you that morning. 

Mezzo-Level Activism:

• Stop negative body talk.

• When you are in groups, with friends, with co-workers and you see the conversation turn to judging what they ate this morning, fat shaming themselves or others, thin shaming people they admire, cutting their bodies up in parts to hate, stop the conversation. Say things like, "Hey, I really like what we were talking about before, can we go back to that conversation?" or "It makes me really sad when you talk about your body that way. It also makes me wonder if other people are affected by the way you talk about (your body)." Sometimes its not only shutting the conversation down, but exploring other possibilities. "I've decided to love my body exactly how it is and wouldn't it be great if we could all do that? No matter what we looked like?"

Macro-Level Activism:

• Don't buy products, or buy-into ideas that hurt you.

• Your dollars are a powerful tool in being a Love Guerrilla. Do you find yourself being lead on by commercials that tell you to change who you are? Do you feel worse after succumbing to these messages and purchasing products that you will never use? Stop buying them! Maybe soft body creams are important to you. And maybe that right cream is in a health foods store purchased by people who are diverse in shapes and sizes and the packaging is beautiful and the cream is natural and speaks to the part of you that wants to buy products with integrity. Think about how your wallet speaks. Don't like a commercial for how they portray women/men? Don't buy their products. If you do like a product, do your research! Find out what that company cares about, if its Dolphin protection great! If the company invests in harmful weight-loss products, do more research. Money speaks.

Why these levels of activism?

Activism and change occurs on a personal (micro), interpersonal/organizational (mezzo) and societal/global (macro) level. Sometimes we are ready to go do macro-level activism and need help with micro-level. Or maybe mezzo-level activism is the hardest for us and we need help. If you need more ideas, you've come to the right place! I will be posting micro/mezzo/macro activism ideas for you to complete and share with others! What types of activism are important to you?

Monday Pledge

I will approach this week with a gentle embrace 

I will use my breath as a grounding force

I will enjoy a kind and loving stare back in the mirror

I will try creativity, forgiveness and doing my best

I will feed myself with foods that make me feel well and satisfied

I will move my body in ways that makes me feel alive and strong 

I will not overwhelm myself with the should's, have to's, and need to's

I will remember to cultivate a deep and loving care for myself that is rooted in 

Self-love!

Love Guerrilla Reading List

Being a Love Guerrilla is a call to action! It started for me as a desire to love my body and my desire and commitment to see a different world around me that was loving of all bodies, shapes and sizes! Along my journey it became important to educate myself on other leaders fighting the good fight. Recognizing that there are historians, scientists, poets and writers championing Size Diversity and HAES is not only inspiring but empowering!

Here is a short reading list that every Love Guerrilla should have in their back pocket!

• Embody: Learning to Love Your Unique Body (and quieting that critical voice!), the new book from The Body Positive, by Connie Sobczak- COMING SOON!

• The Fat Studies Reader, Editors: Esther Rothblum & Sondra Solavay

• Health at Every Size, Linda Bacon, PhD

• The Beauty Myth: How Images of Beauty Are Used Against Women, Naomi Wolf

• Bodies, Susie Orbach

• Fat!So?, Marilyn Wann

• Fat Politics, J. Eric Oliver

• The Obsession: Reflections on the Tyranny of Slenderness, Kim Chernin

• Manifesta: young women, feminism, and the future, Jennifer Baumgardner and Amy Richards

What books do you know of expand on the fields of Size Diversity/Fat Politics/Body Acceptance/Health at Every Size?

Defining Definitions

Our world is full of catch-phrases and terminology and it can become confusing when not defined! I wanted to let you all know some terms that I use in my every day life and that you will see a lot of in this blog! 

Love Guerrillas: 

A Love Guerrilla is someone who fights passionately for the freedom to love their body and champions the human right to love themselves for all people.

Size Diversity: 

Size diversity is a growing field of study encompassing health and social justice, which encourages that size and weight-based oppression needs to be addressed in all forms. Size Diversity honors naturally occurring genetic diversity in body shapes and sizes!

Social Justice: 

A call to action. The recognition of one global community and the human responsibility and commitment to serve the needs of people everywhere especially those historically oppressed and disenfranchised.

Health at Every Size(HAES): 

Health at Every Size is a health paradigm that promotes healthy behaviors for people of all sizes, taking out of the equation the thin=healthy paradigm. This means that people of all sizes can enjoy better health and do not have to accept messages about their bodies that they must physically be thin to be healthy.

Feminism: 

The belief that women and all genders should have equal rights and opportunities in all aspects of their lives (socio-political and personal).

Self-Love: 

The feeling and deep knowing of care, appreciation and affection for oneself from which confidence and beauty grows.

Fat: 

A descriptive word for cells on your body, taken back to empower oneself and de-stigmatize bodies. Not used in judgement- EVER. (No judgment for words: thin, tall and short, etc. either!)

Loving your body is:

In the theme of "Throwback Thursday", this photo was taken in October 2013. This sign was made as part of a flash mob I choreographed for my team in order create a project that would promote reducing stigma around mental illness. I think of this today as we film for a similar project and use the same signs. Recovery is Possible is our theme for the video. I connect the word "Possible" to loving your body! When we come from a place of gratitude for our bodies we are aware of all the amazing things our bodies allows us to do. They are the vehicle for our voice! I could not champion the rights of others if I denied myself the same rights to live freely in my own body. Think of the power in creating possibilities for ourselves and for others. Think about your own method of telling your story (flash mob, PSA-video, dance, poetry) and declare it!

Big Bottom

I found this awesome market/restaurant in Guerneville, Ca called Big Bottom Market. It takes it's name from the redwood groves and history of the town. To me, this market is an opportunity to love my size and take a playful photo! Anywhere I can find inspiration for some Love Guerrilla awesomeness I will take! Own it! Love it!

New World Order Says Love

This is for the rebels
For those who stir in their sleep
Who dream loudly
Who love deeply

This is for the activists
With their ears to the pulse of the people
Who create and dare to be different

This is for the truth tellers
The ones who share their stories
The ones whose myths they weave on their sleeves

This is for the justice seekers
Who measure time on balanced scales
Who see battlegrounds on city streets and in our hearts

This is for the girls, the women, the mothers
The boys, the men, the fathers
Those who do not want to be defined in binary terms
The others, the outcasts, the stigmatized-bodied

The world is yours to take back
This is the battle cry

Freedom fighters waiting for their chance to strike
To strike love in every corner of the soul
The part of you that begs to love your body

Here we are
Join our fight

This is love.

Jessica Diaz
2014